& the world goes round..keyera tht is

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2010-08-27T01:57:00.000-07:00

woah ! -_-
been a lot of UN-NEEDED drama going on these past weekends, & i just happen to always be involved somehow someway, without me having anything to do with any of it ! & it's really starting to seriously piss me off, i never get mad over little kiddy shit nor anything tht doesnt have to do with me, but it's been so much tht sooner or later im going to go postal on somebody !

so, my sister decided she would finally come back home & for whtever reasons tht made her come back, i dnt want to be involved at all..but then wht happens ? i end up getting blamed for her coming back ?! wtf ? i had absolutely nothing to do with tht, ppl make their own desicions & tht was HERS, anyway im over it .
..my girlfriend seems to be upset with me over some not even worth it type shit, & it's getting to the point where im starting to think tht all this "surround keyera with the drama" is all a setup, like why am i getting prosicuted ? wht the heck have i done to anybody ? seriously .
there is too much going on in MY life right now, tht i really didnt want to speak on, but it's hard to not have to think about it when i feel like everybody is just on my back .
i just wnna scream, "i'm dying" ! but hell, tht probably wouldnt stop anything, even with it being the truth .

i've always lived my life as free & "happy" for the most part, just to prove tht my disability didnt get the best of me. well, i guess now you could say, it just might..
but you knw wht, i refuse to just give up now & let anything stop me from doing wht i've been doing for almost 21 years, & tht's LIVE, live as if i didnt have Sickle Cell & i was just as healthy as everybody else, not having to take any medication, never going back&fourth to the hospital & all tht
man man mannnn, how did i let this even get close to trying to get the best of me ?
i always think about death, & how i knw my time might not be so far away, but i always have tht hope tht i'll live to at least see my 60's haha, everytime i pray about it, i always ask God to please let me live to see 60 & i knw it may not happen, but hey i can still keep praying tht it does (:

this last time tht i was in the hospital had me very scared, i've never had a fever so high & not knw tht i was even sick :/ .. 103.8, tht's pretty much 104 & for a Sickle Cell patient, tht could have been critical if i didnt get there when i did .. i fond out tht im so sick, i have to get another surgery soon. havent told anyone but my mom, & i guess now she's not alone lol .. i guess the reason why i havent told anyone else is because i didnt think anyone cared enough to knw, actually i still dnt but i mean hey whether you do or you dnt, now you knw ..
i just hope everything goes good with tht & i come out of it a thousand times better then i do going in.
ughh, i jst went from being somewh stressd over drama tht wasnt even mine, to my personal issues -_- i really need a break from some things lol
i'll be fine.

& you are the ONLY exception

2010-06-17T01:46:00.001-07:00

wht am i doing ? ME, tht's wht i'm doing, & this is wht i'm going to do until it's OVER !
Drake, couldn't have said tht any better.
i decided to start this particular blog the way i did because lately it seems like everyone wants to have some kind of say on wht KEYERA is doing, as if there lives aren't interesting enough.
well, hope you ALL enjoy my adventure !

OMG ! if i've never had to make a "tough" decision before, i think i'm facing tht now :/
okay, i'm not with anyone right, & of course everyone knws -_- lol, but tht's not the issue .. my options, i have MANY to choose from & it's hard to just have one; well at least when the one you want isn't YOURS, if you understand where i'm coming from ;)
like how do you even go about tht ?
it feels so unfair to me, yet i feel like i'm not just the victim but also the suspect, meaning i'm sitting here wanting tht ONE & i'm obviously their option also because we're not together, but then i'm pretty much committing the same "crime" with my "others" & doing the same thing to them tht's being done to me .. it's not easy at ALL, but wht's a girl to do ?! i sure dnt knw, yet :(

"tell me if you want me to say whts on my mind baby, i can't keep it to myself no more, am i out of line baby ? i knw that we've been talking a lot, but just on the surface, i wnna knw if it's worth it ? come on baby let me knw something.."

Hope you remembered my perfume on you...

until i'm figuerd out,
peace out dolls ;*

i'm an aunty ! :D

2010-05-11T11:38:00.000-07:00

May 10th, 2010 -7:06am
Alana Sky Jones is born, My Neice (:

Aunty Loves YOU Nana =*

are you really going to be that stupid ?!

2010-04-14T04:25:00.000-07:00

kinda been a while since i wrote a blog ehh ?
well, i've been extremely busy with life & im loving every bit of it ;)

omg there's soo much to tell...
first off, i can't wait until my neice Alana gets here !
it's funny how my emotions went from torn&ashamed to excited&giddy .
im happy my sister went through what she did because i honestly think that this made our family closer & im happy that everything didn't turn out for the worse.
but on another note, im totally NOT condoning teenage parenthood ! i am so against teens having babies, i think it's bad & not okay for ppl to encourage it these days .
i've seen, known & HEARD of too many pregnant girls under the age of 18 & i think it's so tacky, especially since im sure more than half of those girls are just doing it to keep whoever the baby daddy is, around longer than he would actually stay -_-but hey, what can you do...oh wait i knw, USE PROTECTION !

im only saying

next topic,
found out TOO MUCH things in these past month's that really just make me think really ?!
like, ppl dont knw wht they have until someone fucks up, that being them or another, either way it's pretty much too late by the time they realize it & then they end up with that one little question, what if ?two small words that can give you big thoughts, thoughts of what could have been different had you not done whatever it was you did to make you question yourself .what if ?
well i guess my mind doesnt want to speak anymore than it already has...so with that said,

until next time,
peace&love dolls =*

you would think i gave up by now =/

2010-03-10T16:18:00.000-08:00

honestly...

couldnt have said it any better .

back to the basics

2010-02-17T21:34:00.000-08:00

suwooopppp (:

felt the need to write a blog tonight, since i have nothing else to do -_-
well, im back in the hospital once again & it sucks just like all the other times..
luckily my sister brought me something to eat (i was going on a hunger strike)
& even had my mama waiting in the parking lot for an hour lol
she was telling me how boring the house was without me lastnight & how much she misses me when im not at home :'(
i love my sister so much, & im glad she told me tht & let me knw how much she loves me..

soo, had an interesting month so far..nothing special at all tho
-besides a new friend =)
ppl are confused & think they can have their cake & eat tht shit too, nuh uhh not with me buddy
i mean dnt take me for granted, im here but im not going to always be here
especially when your barley there..think about tht
love's not going anywhere, but tht can all change, it's in your hands...

more to come, feeling kinda nauseas right now =/

until next time,
peace&love dolls (:

November 17, 1989

2010-01-21T02:41:00.000-08:00

my personality -according to facebook (:

birthday- November 17, 1989

Lucky Color: Jade

Personality Strengths: Innovation, Confidence

Personality Weakness(es): Eccentricity

Successful Career Path: Fashion

Sense of Humor Style: Friendly

Adjectives to Describe You: Enterprising

Description--
Bright and cheerful - you are always smiling and add a smile to the face of all those that know you. Chirpy and talkative for the most part, you are outgoing, social and extroverted. A largely happy person on both the outside and the inside - may you always remain the same!

i couldn't agree anymore !
tht is so me tht it's kinda scary =/ lol

until next time ,
peace out (:

january 1, 2010

2010-01-01T04:22:00.001-08:00

goodbye 2009, & HELLO 2010 !

another years gone by & i wonder , where the hell did time go ?! i mean it feels like just yesterday i was at home sketching prom dresses for my '09 graduates & now i'm starting to count down til my 21st birthday ! mann 2009 sure did fly by faster than superman on his way to save a damsel in distress .. & he flys pretty fast (trust me)
although the end of my 2009 wasn't so dandy & had the saddest thing happen tht could have my family in tears & heartache , i'm going to CONTiNUE 2010 even harder & have on my best smile the whole way thru (:
any changes ? resolution ? "new" me ??? -nope
i'm still the same keyera i was yesterday & the day before tht & even 19 years before tht .. just without a gall bladder =/ lol
still loving everyone tht will allow me to & enjoying MY life the way i choose ..

happy new years everyone !
be thankful tht you've seen yet another year & LOVE iT (:

until next time ,
peace out (:

HiGH-school reunion

2009-12-23T23:56:00.000-08:00

omg last week was quite a rollercoaster for me . i ended up arguing with one of my best friends over something stupid (bestfriend#1) which led to another minor argument with another bestfriend (bestfriend #2) ! can you say DRAMA ?!
but we got over it & bestfriend#1&i went to get manicure's like bestfriends do (:
now cutting to the chase , wht inspired me to write lol
friday night my twin txtd me saying she was on her way to my house to get dressd & if i wanted to come with ? well ihad Nothing else to do so , wht the heck .
got all doll'd up , changing outfitts about 7 times lol , until iwas comfortable .. didn't really matter wht i wore cause i still would've lookd gorgeous like always .
so we leave my house around 10ish but we had to pick up yaya & "bestfriend#2" .. we get to the party & right away i find myself dancing & singing along to these words..
" when i met you last night baybeyyy.. "
everybdy knws thts my shit lol
& right there two-stepping with me we're jasmine (fellow cheerleader) & eric (another cheerer) , we all exchangd hugs & ''omg's'' ! lol
after tht song went off i was a little out of breath =/ , but thts because everywhere i turnd sombdy was somking , aahhhhhhh !
i was UN-willingly inhaling second hand-smoke ppl , it was badd ..
then me&bestfriend#2 noticed a couple dudes tht lookd kinda familiar so we go over towards them & come to find out its guys we went to high school with , so tht was another little reunion .
then it seemd like more & more old high school associates kept coming one after another
i saw my high school ' bby ddy ' who was actually waiting for me to get there because my twin told him i was coming lol .. i just have tht affect on ppl ;D
i mean i enjoyd myself , but the little "reunion" i could of done without ..
it was lame having to see reminders of why i was so glad to be gone from santee
:same 'ol immature kidds never going to change , smh
will they ever grow up ?
i sure do hope so !

until next time dolls
peace out (:
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you&me could write a badd romance

2009-12-08T18:40:00.001-08:00

sooo , i've always told myself tht i would NEVER write a blog about a guy,
especially one guy specificly ..
well , i guess i can make an exception ? ;)

obviously this person has some kind of meaning to me & tht can be because of anything, who really knws why ?
i've known him for about 4yrs now & it's weird because when i first met him i would've never thought i'd end up having feelings for him in the long run ..
it wasn't until maybe the 2nd year of being friends with him is when i actually kinda started 'paying attention' to him lol
i mean i've always adored his personality & wht not, but tht time around i guess he just grew on me
which i didnt mind btw (:

so anyway , this lucky dude tht i'm writing about is somebody i dnt want to lose at all because i feel tht if we were to part ways i wouldn't be able to live with the fact tht he's no longer there ..
& i would like to think he feels the same in my case
sometimes i honestly can't stand him & sometimes, i just want him =/
kinda bluntly just put out there right ?! oy vey lol
& if he just so happens to read this, i hope he appreciate's it cause like i said in the begining i would NEVER do this for anybody !
Meaning- your pretty special in my awesome life & i really do Love You a lot, i mean tht !
but i also dislike you so dnt get too overwhelmed with excitement lol , kidding
& knwing you, this is just going to blow your fat head up even more. smh

ily foo ;)
& a little word of advice: dnt settle for tht broad -_-
you deserve better.

until next time ..

p.s. opinionative minds- ido wht i want =p , thanks
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20 years already ?!

2009-11-24T03:06:00.000-08:00

iknw this blog tht im writing is well OVERdue & very anticipated ;)
so let me fill you in on my november ( the best month in the universe ! )

sooo iguess it started out okay , tht is until the 6th , which is when i ended up back in the hospital & this time was no joke =/
i got so sick while i was there tht i ended up having to get surgery to get my gall bladder taken out !
yes of course it was scary cause i've never had to experience anything like tht .. but after being there for 2 & a half weeks im okay & ready to stuff my face for thanksgiving & party til i lose my shirt .. again :X lol

im 20 now !
i unfortunatly had to spend another birthday in the hospital , but it was cool cause i got some pretty awesome gifts from my nurses
they love me (:
now i gotta find a way to celebrate my birthday right with my bff's & familia ! going out to eat always works for me lol

well thts enough for tonight , plus im in my bed writing this blog on my phone instead of trying to get some needed sleep !
so with all tht shit said .. ttyl ppl =*

until next time
peace out (:
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ever wondered ?

2009-10-11T00:56:00.000-07:00

paramore -that's what you get

" .. i wonder, how am i suppose to feel when your not here
cause i burned, every bridge i ever built when you were here i
still try, holding on to silly things i never learned
oh why, all the possibilities im sure you've heard .. "

that's wht you get when you let your heart win

is it just me ?

2009-10-10T06:59:00.000-07:00

it's 6:38 a.m. & im wide awake with too much on my mind
this has probly been the most surprising week i've had all year
-good & bad
it started off with the cheesiest smiles & sadly ended with the worst possible downfall
had me crying for 3days straight
i never experienced anything tht i couldnt deal with, until now
it's making me feel like the bad guy but then again tht's my only option
i guess you could say my sad over took my happy
& honestly it's true
all i can do now is keep my head up & do as i do best ;Be ME
" & if you fall stand tall & come back for more .. "

as of now i ask myself, will i ever be sincerely happy ?
seems like lately i've been hiding behind a smile in replace of a frown
am i depressed ? highly doubt it .. depression doesnt set well with me
wht the hell is going on ?!

hopefully soon my happiness finds it's way ...

until next time -

.. he does it for you " laytayes " lmao

2009-10-07T04:20:00.000-07:00

doesnt he sound like cleveland from family guy ? lol

one step at a time ...

2009-10-05T00:57:00.000-07:00

well , by my title your probly thinking a billion things .. & you can keep guessing cause im not going to specify wht it means (:

so the other day was probly the start of a lot of happiness ;D
it was something tht i wasnt expecting to happen any time soon which made it an even better surprise
but enough about tht .. dnt wnna get TOO into detail >:p

im such a procrastinater tht it's not even amusing . at all =\
there's sooooo many things tht i need to do & im just not tending to them , ifeel like a lazy ass . smh
but this week , im determined to at least knock 3things off my to do list
ihope i dnt forget tho . lol

OMG ! my 20th birthday is in 1month & 1week !
i cant believe im about to be done with my teen years ... bout time
i've been anticipating this birthday because now i can finally move out & be on my own , imean i dnt mind my mom wanting to take care of me & all but she needs to learn how to let her kids grow up & be independent (something she has a VERY HARD TIME doing) iLOVE my mommy tho & if she wants to spoil me for the rest of my life , more power to her . lol

now yesterday i had quite a few aim conversations right
at least 4 of the guys tht i was talking to asked me
" how's your love life " ?
& im thinking ;oh geez lol
each of those guys got the same exact answer ..
-my LiFE is my love life , im only loving myself right now (:
reason being .. tht's just how it is . & i like it tht way , for now lol
i really do LOVE my life & everyone in it , close or not
i have enough love to go around the planet twice times !

p.s. like i said from the start- it's only a matter of time .. was i right ?? we will see ! ahah
ily tho ! ;-*

until next time
peace out (:

a lesbian affair of BESTfriends

2009-10-01T04:28:00.000-07:00

hey there ppl
im sure you knw tht im kinda dedicating this blog to my special whores .
see , you guy's are all my whores , but these girls are my OFFICIAL whores (:
ilove them a lot ! you should too ...

jessica -my Twin

this is the one tht i can never get mad at ! no matter wht happens icant seem to get mad at her .

we've never argued about anything & tht's wayyy out out of my element !
me&her really act as if we're twin's .. paternal tho . lol
ilove her a lot & iknw she love's me just as much .
i can tell her anything
we cook together everytime she comes to my house awesome right (:
ily twin !

kiesha -my neglecting bestfriend lol

this girl . smh

ithink i argue w. her the MOST !
i guess it's because we both wont back dwn to anything & then when one of us dnt get our way we clash . lol
shame huh .. but ido love her a lot
she's like another little sister to me
the dumb little sister tht i cant believe made it out of high school .. oh wait i forgot , she did go to santee my mistake
lmao
ily ky ! a.k.a " hk " , " pj " ;soowooopppp !

mykila -my sister

this here is my little sister not for fake . lol

iknw we dnt look anything alike , but tht's because igot all the good everything since i came first .
so obviously iLOVE her to death !
she's my sissy , my " sistah bubbly " !
lmao -kind of an insider
we may not be speaking much right now & idnt like it one bit -_-
im still gonna be there for her & love her like i've always been doing for 17 almost 18 years .. she bout to be 18 lol
ily !

jojo -my always m.i.a. bestfriend

joana fastie is wht i call this girl ,

long story .
me&jojo have been friends since our cheer days started,hasnt been tht long but tht just shows how good friends we are
at one point in time jojo did neglect me for a while lol
but i forgive her & here we are today just as we were when we first met
she's my fastie & im her fastest ! lol
p.s. jojo -your freakin prom dress is still in my closet ! come get tht shit >,<
ily fastieeee !

carniesha -my felon bestfriend lol

this is carniesha & yes iknw her her face is kinda funny looking , it's okay ..

i've always found it funny tht we're bestfriends now
when i didnt even like her when i first met her .. but idnt think she knew tht at the time . lol
we have a " lovehate " relationship
ilove her , but when she gets on my nerves , SHE GETS ON MY NERVES !
at the end of the day , we're still frest biends lol ;another insider
ily 2cent !

well iguess tht covers the ppl im usally w. & as i said many many time .. iLOVE them !
i'd kill for these bitches .. well maybe mykila but idk bout everybody else . lol
i wanted to write wayy more than i did about them all but tht woulda been a long ass blog =/
& i didnt wnna admitt this but i actually was holding back tears when i was writing about my sister .. it's really hard times over here & iguess tht's one of the reason's i havent really been myself lately .. idk ?
so lemme stop boo whooing & take myself to sleep !

until next time
peace out (:

i drank less than 8 pepsi's today .. scary !

2009-09-30T02:35:00.000-07:00

so my day was kinda blahh like most .
but igot thru it like always & kept a smile on my face
womp wompppp !

idk wht's been goin on w. me lately
it's like ever since i got out of the hospital i've been dwn & why is tht ???
well this morning , i had the shock of the month ... let's just say it was something tht RARELY happens & yeahh im not gonna lie idid smile because of it (: lol ... ithink jojo knw's wht im talking about >;-x

this weekend i refuse to spend at home watching another damn movie tht i've seen a million-zillion times ( the hangover ) lmao
but i do love tht movie tho
" hello, how bout tht ride in ? iguess tht's why they call it 'sin city' , hahah .. "
lol , itell you i watch tht movie too damn much !
now im getting random thoughts in my head ... smh ! the life ilive .

i guess i shall amuse you w. my infatuation's another time lol
so as the little chinese guy(lesly chow) in hangover would say ..
" todahhlooo mutha fuckkaaaaaaaa'sss "

until next time
peace out (:

Khloe Kardashian-Odom* omg ilove her !

2009-09-29T19:58:00.000-07:00

so as everyone should knw by now khole kardashian & lamar odom got married on sunday , the 27th of september !

man mann mannn , im telling you the media is soo messy >,<
how can they question their relationship ?? obviously they must be jealous much
khloe & lamar make a cute couple if you ask me & i love tht girl , even tho idnt even knw her ! lol
imagine if they end up having kids ... whoa ! those are gonna be some HUGE kids
well iwish her & her new husband lots of love&luck&happiness together ...
just had to get tht off my chest (:

until next time
peace out (:

pill poppinnn ;LEGiT

2009-09-27T03:37:00.000-07:00

well here we are again early in the a.m. & this little blog is being written ..
so obviously i cant sleep & it's been tht way since i got out of the hospital , long story :-x
omg it's so hard to knock a bad ass habit but imean when your life's on the line im sure you should sail thru it . righttt ???
in my case , not so easy .. the last time i remember taking all of my meds for at least 1month straight i was probly like 13 or 14 . ALL BADDDDD !
you might ask yourself " why the hell dnt this bitch take her meds knwing damn well she NEED tht shit " ?
:your answer -THEY TASTE HORIBBLE (lame excuse , sure you righttt) lol
but then again you dnt have to do it so ...
NOW back to why i started writting this blog in the first place ,
last month i went to my doctor's appt. just like i do every 4weeks
& my doctor told me tht icould have a heart attack soon if idnt take my medication .
did i care ? hell mutha fucken yes i did ! tht's my life right there & MY LIFE is the shit ! something tht i just love too much , minus the medication taking
these last few weeks i've been in-n-out of the hospital & it's been so effin gay dude .
idnt knw if you wnna call this whole situation a " reality check " or whtever , but im glad to admitt tht im taking my meds again -dnt knock tho
it's hard but hey iknw i can do it & im GOING to do it .
mannnn ! now i want a cheeseburger & a strawberry milkshake from in-n-out :'(
& to tht isay ... late night road trippppppp !!! anyone want something ???????

until next time
peace out (:

for your curiosity

2009-09-13T00:58:00.000-07:00

well this is something i wanted to address due to the numerous questions i get askd like all the time ! lol

everybody either wants to knw,

why are you always in the hospital ?
wht is sickle cell ?
how does it feel ?

so here it goes, you can read it all or just wht you really wnna knw ..

hmm ... sickle cell, my life pretty much. sickle cell is a disease of the red blood cells & NO it's NOT CONTAGiOUS !
i was born with sickle cell but my mom & my dad had no clue, until i turnd 1 year. it actually took 2 trips to 2 different hospital's for doctors to figure out wht was wrong with me & to my parents surprise i was diagnosed with Sickle Cell Anemia. from then on throughout my whole life up to now, i'd say i've been in the hospital a little over 100 times, no lie. now back to wht sickle cell is all about... well i can tell you one thing, it hurts like a hell ! with sickle cell you never really knw wht your gonna get, one time you could be complaining of a really bad stomach ache or your arm could just feel lifeless and dreadfully painful as if someone were just standing on it with combat boots lol
so im pretty sure i can take twice as much pain as most ppl iknw. this also comes along with a list of things tht can happen to you which idnt really wnna get into considering im dealing with facing one right now :-x
so anyway, there you have it ! a little something about my life & the reason why im so damn skinny lol
hope this was somewht of an answer to all you guys tht keep coming with those questions conserning my special little big life !!! wanna knw more ? idnt mind answering any qestions regarding myself .. feel freeeee !

until next time
peace out (:

this is wht you do when you cant sleep ..

2009-09-12T02:50:00.000-07:00

i strongly dislike liars .
if your a liar, go jump of a toilet seat & hope you hit your head on the floor hard enough tht you forget how to lie !
& if you strongly dislike liars just as much as i do .. then you can go & jump off of the same toilet seat right after the liar since you wnna copy me !
i dislike jockers too !!!

until next time
peace out (: